LaSt wiSh oF D abAndoneD..

The compass of time kept on rotating....

I am in a state of idle

Waana move, but those memories...

Held my hands singing;

''u can't move''

I shouted to the future to gimme a relief..

But not the present do..

I know; it's a sort of solitary imprisonment

No lawyers of life to get me rid off it..

No gates of life to flee from

And no value for tears as there's no one to see that

Clouds are dark but wid out rains of salvation..

I screamed; but no one to hear

I looked to the sky..

With a hope of bliss of your face..

And this; perhaps my last wish

Touch me and take me

To another world where,

No one knows the meaning for sorrow................

a NostalGia......

Month : January

Day : Tuesday

Time : 22:30

Temperature : -4 with light snow shower....

location : No: 25, Viscount Drive, Beckton

(don't know for what the above information provided for??????????)

dear Anna,

its' long time, since i wrote something to you, but it doesn't means that i have nothing on my mind for you, because for all this days i just wrote about you and only about you , the whole story i wrote was just....just for you.....but my fear doesn't allowed me to do so...i don't know why and what this fear for???but i know one thing that, that i need to cover it for being expressive so that i can reveal my feeling, my mind to any one i know or someone who can understand me....but anna..., i am afraid that i don't have anyone to tell that.....its full of darkness here, and snow has covered almost all the street.....and when i look outside my windows i can see that its still snowing in the night, but if you look over there far away you can find the moon...its shining...no, its smiling to me, a smile with lot of love and care in it....and each snow flakes from that glimpse are coming near to me , so near...that i can feel that in the cold breeze from far far west.....but all of a sudden it just disappeared....i don't know where it gone... but only thing i know is that tears are there in my eyes then, .....its' just the same way i had you in my life anna....for just a fraction second in my life......and that fraction of second is in which i am still surviving...

three years....i don't know why they gone so fast with leaving all your memories with me....still nightmares makes me to cry in dark nights....and when i wake up with tears i always felt that i miss you a lot....i wish you 've been there with me .....to care me and just to wipe my tears away...anna i don't know what sort of love i have for you...when ever i think about you it'll be just, as if a kid thinking about his mother......you made a lot of meaning for my life and you mean a lot, no....., more than a lot for me......coz as every one used, to say i can't describe you in just one word or one letter..........the light from the street is fading out of the snow........anna but now it seems to snow become just like you.....so white, so cute and endless like your love.....anna i can't write any more coz i just want to go out there and feel that love.....coz its just like feeling you....for i can't ignore any chance i got, so that i can feel that you are so near to me.....so near that i can hold you and never let you go awy from me.......